Hello friend, happy Monday. This post is free, a free post, a post for free so anyone anywhere can read it as long as they have wifi and are not actively fighting for their life in a war zone or natural disaster. If that's you, congratulations! Today you might not die. Add it to the gratitude list!
I've been thinking about the end of the world as we know it quite a lot. Have you? I osciallte between "being pissed off at" and "being envious of" people who don't think about the end of the world daily. How stupid of them! How genius of them! Ultimately, I'm just sad and scared and it comes out in pointing fingers at people and telling them who they are and what I think they should do with their life. I file these thoughts away in the brain folder called "useless thinking" - it's quite a hefty brain folder!
Every time I make a deposit in the Useless Thinking Folder, I make an equal deposit in the Helpful Thinking Folder. That folder is mostly repetitions of the SeReNiTy PrAyEr because i NeEd iT aLwAyS.
Anyways. I'm about to do a week of music making. Today is Monday and by Friday's end I shall have at minimum FIVE new songs. I am a featured artist at the "New Normal Writing Camp" which is a music writing camp that emphasizes producers, songwriters and artists that vary in gender, race, sexuality. Bang bang pretty cool huh? You have to agree! This is a trick!
Anways. I did this camp in April and walked away with seven songs. Six originals, one cover of "Nobody's Perfect" by Miley Cyrus. Hm. That probably has to come out for Halloween huh? It's totally dark and dramatic and I fucking love it. I will share it in the Black Box soon. How about that?
That camp is also where "Casualty" was written. Banger much? You have to agree!!! This is another trick!!
What this means is that a new Addie Addie Addie album will be birthed by the end of the year. This album will be brought to you by a LOT of people though, so that's interesting. My ego has had quite a lot to say about working with other people. Mostly everything my ego has to say has been filed in the aforementioned Useless Thinking Folder.
A lot of fear that working with others will dilute my message or my essence. Fear that my people pleasing will take over and I will make a song just to please the producer and songwriter in the room, two people that I have just met that day, and that the song will be too polite and Not Addie Enough. There is a lot lot lot of fear in the Useless Thinking Folder.
To even out the useless thinking, here are some depositis I am going to make into the Helpful Thinking Folder:
I am stronger than my people pleasing tendancies! I have the capacity to work with others and be collaborative without losing myself in the process! Everyone here is here to help me! Everyone wants what is best for me and for the song! I love making music and music loves being made by me! No matter what happens I will learn from this experience and the pursuit of learning is always worth the pain! Pain is gain! Even if the world ends, I can still make art! If I die, I can go out making art! I am soothed by this! GodgrantmetheserenitytoaccepthethingsIcannotchangethecouragetochangethethingsIcanandthewisdomtoknowthedifference!!!!
Alright, that feels like a solid deposit. I wonder what song I will write today. Perhaps if I get a bounce of it, I will share it here with you.
We got this! Monday! Which translates directly to "moon's day" and apparently "ancient peoples, including the Babylonians and Romans, named this day after the moon" - so how about that. Happy Moon Day! Pull down your pants and look at your butt in honor of Moon Day. Moon yourself why don't ya.
With love and serenity and a pinch of cynicism,
Addie